I am feeling so upset today. Feeling so sick at the same time. But nobody cares about me. Infact they even hurt me. The boyfriend i love so much is just not someone i used to look up to n respect. He just got no balls. He is still a baby.. not grown up yet. I feel so sad how he can walk around when he is admitted on hospital. He even went to paragon. Gosh.. how much i sacrifice everyday sitting next to him in the ward doing ntg. Hw i spend every weekend in his crib not being allowed to go out. I miss going on a date with my own boyfriend but i try my best to be patient and tolerate with all this. I have to be understanding with his condition. But looking at him walking ard today just break my heart. Even if i came today to visit him. I wont get that chance of walking around. I just wonder why i just have to take care of pple feeling. What about my happiness. Is everything fair enugh towards me? By all means if u wanna do whateva shit. But is it a must for you to take all the pictures? Whats your motive actually? And there he goes ignoring me. After all i have done. This is what i deserve in the end.

Jealousy will only kill you at the end of the day. Holding my breath and trying to pull myself together. Trying my very best to overcome this jealousy. I dont it to end up destroying my relationship further. I just love him so much..just too much and im sure of his feelings too that he adore me too. Just got to learn and trust him in love. Theres no point of getting angry and being so paranoid without any reason. If i were to follow my feelings.. i would have kill all the girls that even talk to him but seriously its so not reasonable.